Unchartered Zone

Every month, week, day and even year, I complain about the same thing repeatedly. Guess it’s sort of a habit and a ritual. I believe this is the first time I gathered all categories into one entry.

w64a

Seriously speaking, w64a is an awesome class, everyone, facilitators and classmates included are great. The only problem lies with me. I have a sort of communication barrier with everyone. I have very negative thoughts and also kinda ’scared’ to talk to them. Because of my current social activity level, I basically think my class and grades have been affected on a significant scale. Not that I don’t want to do anything about it, but I just don’t want to.

In fact, while others can already label each other as friends, I only can merely refer everyone as ordinary classmates. Really a major ass my social life has always been since young…

Hey! Gorgeous

Today they came to my school today looking for what their show title goes by – hot hunks and cute/beautiful babes. But seriously, the real problem with this show is – the real deal goes into hiding, I mean seriously most of the people are either sabo-ed by their so-called friends, or just pretty much average looking. Most people are too shy about their assets and rarely would you see a hunk or a babe go “yeah, I am a babe/hunk”.

Singaporeans…always lacking that high confidence in one’s sexiness. Especially in this season, only a couple are notable to be real hunks and babes. But what can you do about it? Just make do with weeds when you can’t find premium plants.

Blogging

I noticed a drastic drop in standard of my blogging, sometimes I think it’s so bad, I still wonder why I blog. I blog mainly to have a release on my inner thoughts and feelings. Also I wouldn’t want to confine it to some paperback media given the technology we have these days. It’s also least likely to last till I’m old.

I don’t really care much about who views me, I’m just satisfied that the viewers and taggers are my real close friends. Of course one can use a blog to it’s full potential to gain publicity but that was not my purpose. Nowadays I noticed even as I can make authentic entries in my head, they somehow get summarized, boring and out of point when put here. Even now…

Xiaxue

I took a good read at her blog today, she’s one of Singapore’s most controversial blogger well because she usually blog abut things that are too controversial for Singapore’s norms. But however, like my friend stats, she does bring up very good points. It also makes me wonder if she excelled in English and at argumentative essays back in school. If her whole image fails one day she may consider taking up a lawyer’s job, I bet she’ll be excellent at it.

Yes, Xiaxue may be fake, a bit of a slut, fat and whatsoever nicknames girls may love to give one another. Personally I don’t really care much about personal attacks on her and whether to find out if they are really true. I just bother more about the things she writes about. Very insignificant yet very true, I recommend people to read the entry about “Cab Snatchers” to get what I mean. But otherwise, I think she’s a very straightforward person with too-strong a sense of justice, and also dares to reveal bits and details about herself regardless the situation.

Something I would like to be but always lacked the courage to be. Suddenly I also feel more brave to live and let go of certain things, and also to come clean with certain issues.

I can say proudly like one of the entries she written – I’ve been (or nearly, but it’s almost all the same) molested before.

I won’t go too much in details on that but yeah, we’re all wimpy people when it comes to issues like this. That is what makes Singaporeans too much of an easy target, don’t even need to be specifically molestation (either gender). My resolve to change is weak for now, so even as much as I hope to obtain those traits, I still cannot achieve it.