No more fucking codes! November 23, 2007
Posted by larg in Life @ Republic, Reviews.2 comments
These past few weeks was really a drag, I didn’t feel like updating till now. I was opening my email when I saw Sandra’s email. Clicking on it led me to this…
rofllmao 
“This message has been blocked for your safety”, “This message may be dangerous”…I really LOL’ed. The only thing dangerous Sandra could only send me would be a cute but deranged rabid kitten. I thought she would get mad also because of my judgement of her blog in the last post ahaha but anyway inside was nothing dangerous at all, just an invitation to an outing.
Another thing to celebrate about is the results of my specialization for Year 3.
Like how awesome is this, my dream course and yes..no more fucking CODES! *Gets ready to drag all of JAVA/PHP 6P to the recycle bin*
For some reason I’m always lacking in the logic department, hence not being able to understand Maths and Codes so naturally I would do better in a theory course, a heavy one at that and also my love interest in SIT for now.
Of course with happy things come about unhappy things, that’s what we call balance. But I personally do not want to spoil this post with a list of complaints for today, it’ll be endless as well. And oh I found something interesting in the last few weeks, if you love the Windows Vista lookup but don’t like it or can’t afford it, you can give a splash makeover to your XP or whatever Windows version you are using. Just be warned that your Windows is not a 64bit version, it will kinda screw up your system.
Here’s a short preview how my lookup looks like now, I really love the dashboard shortcut at the top. And yes, they have makeover kits for Linux and Mac OS as well.
Link – http://www.crystalxp.net/
Beginning of an End November 10, 2007
Posted by larg in Life @ Republic, Thoughts.1 comment so far
Finally that big rock down my path has been removed and done with, Professional Profiling. I think I was so psyched that day that I reached there earlier than anyone. After I pinned up the posters in my booth, I have to say I was a bit stunned when I heard those words:
“You may begin,“
I had to throw away everything I was worried with, never mind I was a guinea pig for presentation for the other students who had not begun yet – but the truth is I can’t really remember what I was like during presentation. I just lost myself and spoke all the way till the end. I cross-referenced/answered the accessors’s questions until they could not question me further.
Talk about being ever ready…but the only thing it seems I was not prepared was when they asked me about the staff strength – I had to give (or in this case, guessed) a random but logical figure.
very very deep english…
Someone tell me if the comments meant good or bad news, I’m still in a state of worldwide blur-ism.
Still I just care for the fact it’s all over, now to finish up my last 5 NDA points of CE and screw everything – it’s onwards to year 3 with all the specializations/electives/fyps~
One week vacation is passing really fast, a lot of things has been going on in my head but not like I can remember everything. Frankly I also don’t where to begin to start pouring my thoughts out…later today I’ll be going on an experience I won’t forget, I would blog about it but it would most probably be password protected.
I don’t know what I really want but I have a lot of problems telling me what I might want.
PP November 5, 2007
Posted by larg in Life @ Republic, Rant season.2 comments
I’m not sure whether I’m exactly happy or mad…my life’s going semi-downhill and up again. Now is my 1 week term break, something to happy about but….
…RP is so cheapskate!!
They clumped the PP presentation together in our 1 week term break so basically we have to “work” our asses off for a silly PP poster. Thank god with help from Wei Bao I finished my poster and I’m the first to present tomorrow. Kinda freaks me out when Irene said I might be presenting to quite a lot of people because…
- PP advisor
- 3 Accessors
- random people walking around who are looking at you present, they are the ones waiting for their turn
Even though I’m a bit worried about having to face too many people but I’m the first to present, so how many people would be there? Also I wanna talk about my poster – the end result is really nice but I spent (ok not my money but..) $20, supposed to be $16 but then a RED A3 paper clashed with everything making your eyes bleed so I had to fork out another $4 to reprint on a different coloured paper. Bah talk about luck…anyway after tomorrow good riddance.
Attachments or PP? I dunno which one is worst but I have heard horror stories on job attachments.
Another reason I’m ranting again is that half of my house is being “home improved” due to fengshui and stuff. My lovely yellow room is now a shade of light purple..ugh. Now most of possessions are homeless due to lack of space and also my laptop table is reduced to a lowly portable table and chair. My parents say it’s for everyone’s good in due. But I think otherwise…but anyways my whole house is paint scented. Bleh.
Untitled October 23, 2007
Posted by larg in Life @ Republic, Thoughts.1 comment so far
I noticed my procrastination habit is coming again, I don’t wanna lose track of my memories so I better blog them before the land in my brain’s recycle bin.
RP
Seems like my facilitators have caught up on how too much of an independent worker I am. Almost all of them all commented I didn’t participate much in group discussions and even though I did do my part but it’s just not ‘right’. As my facilitator Joseph for web applications said yesterday…
“I know you’re doing your work, but you’re quiet and I can’t ignore that. I also don’t know how much are you learning but yet you know I can’t do that lah (forced questioning) and also if I were to walkaway and I’m being paid for this, I also won’t feel good,”
Not I can really help it but I fail in communicating with my class *cough*.
And as for my PP…
Accepted!! xD
It’s almost close to my PP presentation, I’m psyched yet nervous at the same time. And also I’m the first for that day to present (8.30am ftw). Well but I’m convinced by my friends it’s a good thing because they’ll be lenient and use mine as a standard to grade the rest after me.
Last but not least, finally Hey Gorgeous! featuring RP next week, I was dumbfounded to see a JJ Lin lookalike on TV!
Life
Sandra just dropped a bombshell on me, William is going for NS soon!! I dunno but every male I know going to NS sounds like a weird feeling. After all in you go NS a boy, out you come out a man. I really hope I can make it to have a last outing with him. NS in my opinion is also a free exercise “program” where you come out buffed (also depends on your body). I can’t really imagine a buffed William (nor a shaved one 
).
Regarding her post again, seems like Singapore is hit with a flurry of rain these days.
私は私が雨の天候をなぜ常に愛したが、か知らない
Rain is very interesting, just like snow it has two sides to it’s nature. It can bring life and similarly it can also take away life. As quoted from sandra
“And a rainbow appears there after. Like a bonus or a promise for better days, or so I believe..”
A rainbow after a rain, calm before a storm…so many sayings linking with this so called mundane weather condition. It’s also very calming to hear the pitter patter of the rain, but also there are very interesting variety of sounds along with the weather. I used to be afraid of lightning, but then I have grown to embrace it.
Lastly, rain is a very nice weather to sleep in~
Wow that was so random.
Another episode… October 12, 2007
Posted by larg in Life @ Republic, Social Degradation.10 comments
This is just another one of those “self-pity” entries, I rather people ignore this post because it’s too sad and it’s too annoying. I have totally given up trying to communicate with w64a. In my entire 4 weeks so far, I only have spoken to only 3 people and yet we’re still far from the term ‘friends‘.
I don’t excel in looks, abilities and personality, which is probably a failed cause for trying to mingle in this class. Everyone has cliques already and have know each other quite well now, I’m just the impossible to approach loner whom nobody has bothered to talk to so far; well majority at least.
I can’t find my voice when I want to speak, socially I fail. Because of this handicap, I swore never to find a job dealing with PR situations, I also found about my weakness via my first job. So for now before the hurt gets deeper I decided to put a stop right now. I don’t know anyone, neither does anyone know me. Let it stay that way until Year 3 when we leave each other for good.
I can’t wait for this entire term to get over with, stat.
Serious thoughts October 6, 2007
Posted by larg in Java for the misfits, Life @ Republic, Rant season, Reviews, Social Degradation.3 comments
Every month, week, day and even year, I complain about the same thing repeatedly. Guess it’s sort of a habit and a ritual. I believe this is the first time I gathered all categories into one entry.
w64a
Seriously speaking, w64a is an awesome class, everyone, facilitators and classmates included are great. The only problem lies with me. I have a sort of communication barrier with everyone. I have very negative thoughts and also kinda ’scared’ to talk to them. Because of my current social activity level, I basically think my class and grades have been affected on a significant scale. Not that I don’t want to do anything about it, but I just don’t want to.
In fact, while others can already label each other as friends, I only can merely refer everyone as ordinary classmates. Really a major ass my social life has always been since young…
Hey! Gorgeous
Today they came to my school today looking for what their show title goes by – hot hunks and cute/beautiful babes. But seriously, the real problem with this show is – the real deal goes into hiding, I mean seriously most of the people are either sabo-ed by their so-called friends, or just pretty much average looking. Most people are too shy about their assets and rarely would you see a hunk or a babe go “yeah, I am a babe/hunk”.
Singaporeans…always lacking that high confidence in one’s sexiness. Especially in this season, only a couple are notable to be real hunks and babes. But what can you do about it? Just make do with weeds when you can’t find premium plants.
Blogging
I noticed a drastic drop in standard of my blogging, sometimes I think it’s so bad, I still wonder why I blog. I blog mainly to have a release on my inner thoughts and feelings. Also I wouldn’t want to confine it to some paperback media given the technology we have these days. It’s also least likely to last till I’m old.
I don’t really care much about who views me, I’m just satisfied that the viewers and taggers are my real close friends. Of course one can use a blog to it’s full potential to gain publicity but that was not my purpose. Nowadays I noticed even as I can make authentic entries in my head, they somehow get summarized, boring and out of point when put here. Even now…
Xiaxue
I took a good read at her blog today, she’s one of Singapore’s most controversial blogger well because she usually blog abut things that are too controversial for Singapore’s norms. But however, like my friend stats, she does bring up very good points. It also makes me wonder if she excelled in English and at argumentative essays back in school. If her whole image fails one day she may consider taking up a lawyer’s job, I bet she’ll be excellent at it.
Yes, Xiaxue may be fake, a bit of a slut, fat and whatsoever nicknames girls may love to give one another. Personally I don’t really care much about personal attacks on her and whether to find out if they are really true. I just bother more about the things she writes about. Very insignificant yet very true, I recommend people to read the entry about “Cab Snatchers” to get what I mean. But otherwise, I think she’s a very straightforward person with too-strong a sense of justice, and also dares to reveal bits and details about herself regardless the situation.
Something I would like to be but always lacked the courage to be. Suddenly I also feel more brave to live and let go of certain things, and also to come clean with certain issues.
I can say proudly like one of the entries she written – I’ve been (or nearly, but it’s almost all the same) molested before.
I won’t go too much in details on that but yeah, we’re all wimpy people when it comes to issues like this. That is what makes Singaporeans too much of an easy target, don’t even need to be specifically molestation (either gender). My resolve to change is weak for now, so even as much as I hope to obtain those traits, I still cannot achieve it.
Rough start September 23, 2007
Posted by larg in Java for the misfits, Life @ Republic, Rant season.3 comments
My school semester has resumed already and I have to say so far, things already went roller-coaster downhill. I still don’t know the class, I already getting ‘D’ and ‘C’ grades, I suck in Java (this time it’s advanced Java omfgwtfbbq), I get flu every morning resulting me having to eat drowsy flu pills (thus resulting in a slumber during class), I have to chiong my PP…
Enough is enough, I hate myself. I have a horrible social factor that reeks of failure and screams of the lack of self-confidence. That alone is enough to hinder me upon anything (or everything) I do. Like god seriously, get off my back!!
I shall not continue this entry further, it’s just calling for more reminiscing of the horrible life I go through everyday at school.
It sucks to be me.
Good day~ August 14, 2007
Posted by larg in Gaming Inc, Java for the misfits, Life @ Republic.8 comments
I managed to grab one picture from my faction forum on that day’s outing.
I look very stoned, as many commented – I was in “afk” mode most of the time. As for the George lookalike, I’ll leave you to find him. The lady with a blue top and a mini pink jacket was the faction leader by the way
Another reason to be happy about…
This means:
- 7 more active points (NDA most probably)
- 4 more diploma points (DA/DP)
- and 5 more whatever points (can be alone or bulk added by the previous two
With CE points off my shoulders I can finally concentrate on PP. Haha, today during Java, the facilitator busted his laptop when he dropped it on the floor. I’m freaking happy about it, call me evil but that’s what he gets for giving me a multitude of F grades. /evil
*Oh and something random, yesterday was the start of Hungry Ghost festival
Something to think about August 6, 2007
Posted by larg in Java for the misfits, Life @ Republic.1 comment so far
Heck today’s Java was messed up alright, it’s already week 14, two more weeks and the good students can start to slack. That is, theoretically speaking - the best students didn’t come at all, the good students stayed till 2nd meeting, the mediocre tried their best and the worst well…slacked. Evan was so disappointed with the class he couldn’t stop complaining. Sometimes I feel all those times from week 1 till now, he still doesn’t understand this class very well. Maybe it’s because the fact he’s new and our class was his first assigned job (or class), still as a facilitator that’s a poor excuse.
My team of course as usual died, I finally got teamed up with Matthew and Fairuz. But Fairuz was one of the good students and he left leaving the two to fend for ourselves with very vague instructions on how to explain out bit. Of course needless to say, we screwed up badly. After today I was wondering what grade everyone would get – as for me it’s the usual F.
Welcome to my world guys.
iProcrastinate July 30, 2007
Posted by larg in Java for the misfits, Life @ Republic.4 comments
I’m not sure whether was it because of being hooked to GE lately or whatsoever, but yes, I’m procrastinating. Everything I’m supposed to do I just assured myself with a simple excuse of – “I’ll do it later” ends up not being done. I’m practically at my wits end now.
My top 5 High end worries
- Java, another day, another F – this really calls for a big fat worry
- Procrastination
- Anti-social attitude//social issues
- Internal turmoil <<<a lot of unsaid issues
- The way I look
With this so many things going on daily (and mostly bad), it’s a miracle I can still survive. My procrastinating attitude is also one of the main reasons why I fail to update this blog too. Anyway w65n is coming to a closure, the school semester will end in August and we’ll be reshuffled to a new class again. I still don’t know everyone that well – classmates yes, but friends?
Not that appropriate I guess.
I don’t ask for much except for close friends who you can click and understand with one another very well. To tell the truth I’m really thankful to Sandra, Irene and Meiyin for tagging on my comment board. Even if you’re the only few, I’m really grateful to get by life just by reading your comments.
My head is like my real blog, everything that ends up here are usually the edited versions. So far I still see no need to use the “Password protected” entry function for this blog too, but yet I hope never too either. There you see? I ran out of stuff to write about again. 
